Amos 3:3 New Living Translation
3 Can two people walk together without agreeing on the direction?
Following God can be confusing for us, there's a lot that goes into discerning the direction of God. If God is going in the direction that looks good to us following him is not a problem. What happens when he takes us in a direction that looks dark? How about if the road leads us to the past to places in time that hurt us very deeply? Are we willing to go then? To follow God, there must be agreement it really doesn't matter where he's going if we agree we can walk with him. I mean how hard is that? If I'm going to tell the truth it can be hard, downright Impossible. Why would you take me places that I want to forget? Who wants to investigate areas of our lives and our souls that are broken? Can't you just fix it God? Why did you let it happen in the first place? These are just a few of the questions that run through our minds when God turns in a direction that scares us. Trust is the main thing that gets us through this difficulty, but what if you don't trust God? When we are traumatized, assaulted, abused, or abandoned trust gets damaged. It's not only trusting human beings that gets damaged, trust in God gets damaged also. The degree of damage can only be measured on an individual basis.
Entertaining the idea that you as a Christian may not trust God entirely is an uncomfortable thought. However, we need to be truthful with ourselves and with God because he already knows. What am I talking about? Of course, I trust God, I wouldn't be a Christian if I did not. Trust happens gradually, when we first meet someone trust them enough to give them our telephone number. We trust them enough to meet them for coffee or dinner. We don't fully trust them with our personal information, who we really are or our deepest darkest secrets. Do we? Trust comes from proven character. God wants a chance to restore trust in places where a breach of trust took place. We think- I don’t trust people who hurt me, and God did not protect me. I am not sure in this area that I trust Him either. You may really trust God to provide. Would you trust if you lost your job and could not find another? God may take you down that road to teach you that He is your source and He will make a way out of no way. Will you follow? Risk everything to grow in faith, and experience the proven character of God? You will be surprised what He will ask you to do to prove who He truly is. God can be trusted.
God connected us to Him and other human beings on a whole, so what one person does affect the lives of others. That can be a blessing or a curse to us. It was God's will for us to live together with him in Eden in perfect harmony. Unfortunately, sin interrupted that plan and gave way to brokenness, the byproduct of sin. Be honest with yourself how much do you trust in a God that let someone hurt you? That is a very difficult question to ask, but we must ask it. As we come into relationship with God he wants us completely to himself. There is no part of us that he will tolerate being withheld from him. We are made in his image and his likeness. Redemption is about restoring that image. Jesus died so that we may be free from our sins, and free from the sins committed against us. His blood washed away my sins and the sins of those who hurt me. What a wonderful truth! I do not have to carry the burden of what I did or what others did to me anymore.
How deep He goes is determined how by how far you are willing to follow him.God by His spirit leads us and Jesus walks with us and accompanies us to wounded places not to dredge up the past, but rather to free us. He will take our place if we let Him. We no longer must be stuck in time reliving trauma over and over in our lives. He releases the pieces of us that got stuck in places where sexual, physical, verbal, mental and or emotional abuse occurred. When that part of us is set free, we can join up with who we are in the present and be made whole. He reaches for the moment when you were abandoned and or rejected and receives you. I have myself experienced Jesus walking me back in my past and wash clean the 4-year-old me who was stained by the sin of my babysitter’s sexual abuse of me. He released me from the shame and perversion that was planted there. I was finally able to leave it behind. It was a great day of freedom for me. What if I changed direction and decided not to follow Jesus where He wanted me to go? We are saved by the blood of Jesus, but salvation is not just for that day and on. Salvation can reach through our entire life and redeem us. Redemption does not erase the memory, it heals it and Christ absorbs the pain. It was already done on the Cross, He takes us on a journey to share that power.
When He calls you to come I ask you- which way will you go?
Psalm 139:23-24 The Passion Translation
23 God, I invite your searching gaze into my heart.
Examine me through and through;
find out everything that may be hidden within me.
Put me to the test and sift through all my anxious cares.
24 See if there is any path of pain I’m walking on,
and lead me back to your glorious, everlasting ways—
the path that brings me back to you.
I asked a bunch of questions to make you search your heart, healing is calling to you and I encourage you today. Follow His lead.